My life Blogg

When you feel so down and only see black and white and want to give up ..all you do is thinking  negative and barley can think positive..and the times i have to pretend im happy and put a fake smile to show im fine but im not..peoples telling me to fight and try move forward but it feels im at the same place all the time and when i try to talk about my problems i just go quiet and try change topic with a fake smile pretending im fine..i wonder how much longer i have to wait to get things started i been waiting so long do i have to wait 2months, 3 month or up to 1 year or more to get started..everytime i look at my self in the mirror i get depressed and feel this not how its supose to be and something is really wrong..i have no clue what to do anymore feeling im about to hit the wall again if nothing happens.




.....don't know how much longer i can handle this pain..time will tell